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i want to be the best...

always always n always....

but why you yourself see that??

i've change a lot...

why you didnt see that??

******

i always want to be a perfect girl like her...

can you give me that chance?

can you??

can you??

can you??

*******

i dont think so...

i want you....

to understand what i want...

very single days i pray....

i pray to ALLAH..

i prayed to ALLAH...

please allah give a chance to prove to **** that i've change..

i just want to make **** happy...

thats it...

****

seriously...

i not that i'm too...too...too far from her...

but can you just once...

give me a chance...???

PLEASE......I BEGGING YOU....

huhuhuh.....:'(

****

If one day i didnt exist in you heart anymore...

i just want you to know that...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ****

LOVE YOU SO MUCH****

MORE THAN MY LIFE....

maybe if you read this...

you may think that i'm lying...

because you didnt see the love from me...

but i really want to say 1 words to you...

YOU ARE THE BEST PERSON THAT I EVER EVER HAVE DURING MY ENTIRE LIFE

P/S I didn't want my picture taken because I was going to cry. I didn't know why I was going to cry, but I knew that if anybody spoke to me or looked at me too closely the tears would fly out of my eyes and the sobs would fly out of my throat and I'd cry for a week. I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing in me like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full.....